tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7884492098720502343.post1214423505637884921..comments2023-10-28T12:06:21.706-07:00Comments on Butterfly Tears: I promiseKarinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01636927762007257328noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7884492098720502343.post-67631607034422220702010-12-11T10:04:38.280-08:002010-12-11T10:04:38.280-08:00This is a lovely blog Karin....I know we talked ab...This is a lovely blog Karin....I know we talked about it yesterday...and it has been on my mind ever since....I am including what I wrote to Melissa... [Written to her daughter, in heaven] I want to wake up and find you here. But you are so far away and becoming even more distant in my memory, and it is so painful… Forgive me for going on with life without you… It just keeps moving farther and farther away....I want to wake up and find Meliange in my arms, look down at her little face - and not just at a picture...and though, I will never forget holding her in my arms, with every passing day, that moment becomes further and further away....and that hurts, and that scares me..."<br /><br />After first loosing my daughter, I used to feel very guilty every time I happend to smile or to laugh, thinking she might think I have already moved on, forgotten, no longer cared...but I have come to realize that she would want to see me smile, to be happy, to move on...but it scares me...I don't want to forget her...I want to remember every detail of her little face, her fingers, her toes...but I know that with every day that passes, my memories become further and further away....that moment is slowly fading away...<br /><br />I still ache for my little girl, and I know I always will...I may not realize it every day, but deep down, my heart will always be broken, a piece of me will always be missing, the longing to have my little girl, forever present...I agree with you - in the pain, I feel close to my beauitful Meli...<br /><br />Thank you again for sharing this with us...it has touched my heart..<br /><br />Bonnie xoxButterfly-angelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00986325058763858428noreply@blogger.com